Graduation, and that person.

Graduation

Very very happy! At approximately 8-9 o'clock on a wonderful Friday evening I received my diploma! May 22nd, that is. I also won some scholarships and I am very grateful to the scholarship donors; the money will greatly help towards my educational expenses.

Since my last name starts with a "W" I was veeery near the end of the line to walk up. When I mean veeery near the end, I mean second to last. My friend since kindergarten was last. He was very nervous. I was so happy that I could sit with him during the grad ceremony. Being able to have him by my side calmed my nervousness a bit... I think it may have been because he was more nervous than I was. I don't think he realized how important he was to me for those 3 hours. We aren't very close though. Oh well. I don't think I'll ever forget him though. We went to elementary school together for a short time because he had transferred to a different school in grade 3. We didn't go to the same school again until high school.

His memories: Taking my cookies at recess time.
My memories: He had very neat and girly writing. We all envied him.

That Person

I guess this is a little strange for me to post this since I never really talk about my personal feelings even on the internet. After the Graduation ceremony most of us grads gathered together at a party. I remember my feelings for that person started a year ago at a friend's party... it was also on the night of last years graduation ceremony.

A year ago, after that party... that person seemed to be avoiding me at school. I sensed that our friendship wasn't the same anymore. The air between us had changed.

So, it has been a year. A year of awkwardness. Yes, we were both awkward around each other for an entire year but yet neither of us has said a word about it. I think the ice between us has melted a bit since last year but the friendship is not the same as it was before that night.

I will truly miss this person when I leave. Maybe the time spent being away from this person will help me lose those feelings for this person. Maybe we can be friends again like before. I just want for things to be like before. None of that awkwardness.

Maybe I'm over thinking this. Maybe it is just me? Maybe this person doesn't think of me the same way I think of this person? Either way, I hope this ice between us melts while we are apart.

At the grad party, the person didn't talk to me much but I couldn't help but notice that this person would give me glances once in a while. Like, seriously, stop giving me hints because I am not going to be making the first move. I want for us to be friends again. It was better that way. This person has been known to be very wishy-washy and plays around with people, even I know that.

Next year, will I see this person again? Will it be at a party? Will it be exactly a year later?

This person is not the same person as my friend who sat beside me during the grad ceremony. ^^